O.o

knowledge is power. time is money. the time to achieve all knowledge:priceless :P

oh life is interesting ;)

back to school. Let me fix up a few things and HERE I GO!

wheeee

thoughts on sleep deprivation

"...en la esencia de las almas,
en la ausencia del dolor,
ahora se que ya no puedo vivir sin tu amor"
-No se lo digas a nadie

I learned to understand you, Diego. I wish you could know the admiration I have of your persona. Your sexual orientation didnt matter. I still believe you are a great man. It is true, no one should and no one could live without love. Naive my view in the past, I learned a lot, you taught me one little big thing, "set asides the differences and find the vast arrays of similarities". That tear as I listen to the song goes into your name, carrying a dear but completely 'straight' meaning. I will make sure to let you know that. I shall see to send you an email. I am gonna miss you. Thank you for your continual support, too. Thanks... a lot.

One learns something everyday. Every single event teaches something. How beautiful life is. The month is gone and now, looking over it, it went away fast. Time is such a deceitful demon. I am glad I am going back to Cornell. So so Glad, though.

I am in a high out of sleep deprivation. It feels like I am drunk. I actually like the feeling...so relaxed. Ha. this is not good, but I cant do anything else until I get into the plane. or else I will miss it :P oh my silly self hahaha


mmmm...a change of time O.o

break it off

(Chorus: Rihanna (Sean Paul)
Break it off boy this has got me feeling naughty
I wanna know boy if I can be your shorty (Sexyness)
Set it off boy make me hot all over my body (Yo, yagga yo, no doubt)
Break it off tonight (Yo, Ri, Ri)


hehe, it lights up my day. the music tone is cool and it distracts me from my problems at home. Not to mention that makes me want to party lol.

the movie I saw yesterday had me thinking...what a world of lies can get u into. if only he had opened the letter before, he wouldnt have gone into that hell. Life is full of tricks, most of them bitter.

still wii-less. Was thinking of getting zelda for gamecube but not even that is easy to get. Fuck it lol.
till later, folks.

interesting

at this point of the semester, I am just trying to study and wait outside the events to see how tangled stuff turns out...will it untangle itself, fail or take a totally unexpected turn?

hehe. I am highly amused, for me and the ones around me. mmm, patience for the dish. I be hungry xD oh well.


on a side note
"HE SCORED! can you believe?"-soccer game xDDD too many hours at it that day

betrayed and with a lot of work

the title says it all.
boo life.
Where did I go wrong?
I chose it, I wont coward back down now. It still sucks.

like a needle in the heart

Like a needle in the heart,
Like a tempest in a cup,
Like a sinful melody out of art...

I am talking nonsense. beware of me. I am sorry. I am trying but I am not used to this.
Once upon a time, I erradicated that disease out of my body. It was no where to be found, not even in the dictionaries of convoluted words. It was solved even before it grew.

Now, weaponless against the enemy I stand. I gave up my immunity. I am at his mercy. I want to see the light for a second. For just a another second, thats all I ask. It so happens to be that my life is being consumed. I cant control it and it seems to me that the destructive agent is expanding at a alarming rate. What else should I do but give in? In all the mightyness of life itself, could I keep fighting, without weapons, without shields, but only with my will to survive?

If life is so miraculous as they said, then let it shine as it has never shone before. I, for once, depend on it.

because I have not before

walking down, in my way to gunhill or lab, ipod on or off, regardless, my mind flies away. Sometimes the desires to escape are overpowering. The desires to fly, wishing the world was not as it is, as somber and gloomy as I understood it to be. Sometimes I wish I wasn't human.

Walking and thinking that maybe there will be a bigger motivation to be alive, maybe in my next semester's classes. The topics look exciting. Read your mind and think what you really should. It has happened before. It is happening again. That is a consolation thought I must do away with.

It is past 4am and I am done with homework. I should sleep but instead I choose to write down my thoughts. How not usual of me. Sometimes I wish that my mind would not enter these complicated states, a self-annihilating perfectionism. Suicidal if you let me. It must work. There is no room for failure.

Maybe one day I will look back and understand that the crack was there and I did not do anything about it. I am happy, or so I try to be. Troubling thoughts of the human mind attack an aimed perfection, an aimed self-enhancing. I must not let them. But I am human, and my quest for enhancement is far from over.

let me wake up from the mist. I shall be the sole author of my book.
-M